The inability to influence events and social conditions that significantly affect one’s own life can give rise to feelings of futility and despondency as well as anxiety.
Dr. Joy Degruy, Post Traumatic Slave Syndrome
Honestly, since coming home from the hospital I feel better physically, but mentally different. I feel unsure about myself. I was so ready to get back to business and my daily routine, but when the time came I got scared. I got lost in my head. I’m trying to figure out what am I doing and what am I doing it for. I’m at a crossroad. This is another growing point and/or growing pain.